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Why fix it if it's not broken?

Wed Oct 7, 2009, 5:48 AM
:bye:

so wait
is this my delusion
im being left by my only f.
come clean and just tell me the answer
do you know what you have done
fuck you and your life
im wondering just what to do
ive got nothing here now
so leave it
with someone who might really care to hear this
your worthless case

so fake
your comments false and lucid
cautious of words that rarely leave your mouth
rethink the choices you made in emotion
what you do
just might destroy
the lives of those you call friends
did you lose sight in my absence
in your pursuit you left us all behind
the face you always look to for answers
becomes an anthem a fit a rage

when you lost your mind
i lost the will
i cant change anything for anyone but me
sometimes i think i cant go on
well these wounds are mine
dont try to say that this was just about you
ignore the impulse to break down the process enough
to just sit back and watch me drown

its true we all want to be alone
youve got no right to walk away
seems you who never had
a choice is now the one with no remorse
sad to see such irony is lost on you
because those who forget where they came from
soon fall back to where they used to be
i'll keep my eyes open to watch you hit the ground
you deserve your wretched past

~AP.

:heart:

  • Mood: Sarcastic
  • Listening to: meow meow meow, Peter's hungry!
  • Reading: Lyrics, notes, e-mails.
  • Watching: Air tickets confirmation screen.
  • Playing: World Of Warcraft
  • Eating: Cheese
  • Drinking: Coffee

Then she crashes! [Please read :) ]

Thu Sep 10, 2009, 8:27 AM
So far and so far and so far...
every single thing seems so.. unimportant.. tiny..

Attention, this will be a kinda long and boring journal entry.

Once upon a time, I met a man, he told me; 'simplicity is everything'.
From that moment 10 years have pass.
I was 11.
Tomorrow at 11/09, at 9.15am I will be 21.
Exactly 10 years!! Yoohoo!

Back to the subject!

Most people use to review their life when a new year comes.
I've been to Greece and I've been to China.
In both countries, in different months, despite where or when, people always review their life.
Time zone doesn't matter. Land doesn't matter.
It happens. Always.
I tend to review my life the week before my birthday.
Actually, that year gap between my birthdays.
And that's what I did.

And no, this will not be a personal journal entry.

Back to simplicity please!

For weeks and months I was screaming; 'Vanity is Perfection!' and I was asking everyone for his or her opinion.
Most of them tried to prove me wrong.

DeviantArt is a community.
Tits, pussies, cocks are everywhere.
If something sells, it'll be produced. The first lesson I had in this faculty I'm currently in was Microeconomics. It was the professor's first words.
If something is produced and sells, people will follow this lead.
Among this 'trend', which is totally understandabled and not questionabled, some people still stand.
Beautiful artists and writers.
I wish I had a subscription only to feature their work. Their words, their poems, their photographs, their art.
Somewhere among them it's my self.
I like retro or untouch photographs. The way of my writing is weird and sometimes it seems so vhaine or stupid.
Sadly or not, this provides my food.
Despite the years I was a ghost-writer for others.

I'm not leaving dA.
But I have to say goodbye!
It's against deviantArt's policy to name the website but some people, may know it.
It's simple, it's shinny and everything is hidden!

One of my latest projects was about CVs and how and why a whole 50% of each CV is full of lies or halve truths.
People build their lives on lies.
Or false truths.
Or they represent their selves like the best CV.
Until you look behind it and see that this CV it's actually made of fragments.
Usually worthless fragments.
Copy cats and copied arts.

dA reminds me of this project.
I don't mind seeing the same subject in 50 different photographs.
I certainly don't!
Every photograph is a unique piece most of the times.
I don't mind reading for the same subject in 50 different ways.
I certainly don't!
Every piece of writing is different most of the times.
But I grew tired.

Behind those photographs, behind those words, behind this art there are little fragments of PR.
Yes, I've done it. Until a point, then I was tired and it was too time consuming.
I never gave feedback in order to demand feedback on my own pieces.
And it rarely came.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not a poser.
I appreciate every single comment, note or favorite.
And countless times I thanked each of you for supporting me and showing me ways to get better.
That's not about the non-received-feedback.

Back to the second paragraph!
dA is made of drama nowadays.
And that last year dA gave me a lot of drama.
Both in personal level and non-personal.
I'm not into catfights.
If I want one, I can watch my own kitties fighting my neighboor's kitties.
So.. I have enough drama in my life!!!
A hell lot!
If you miss some, you can borrow mine!
Eitherway I'm out of here!
My deviations will stay, well.. some of them anyways, you'll stay and I'll be there commenting and giving away stars just a bit.. more silently.

Il silencio!

If someone is interested, check my blog. There's a really shinny and cute banner informing you for my new hole! [shit.. that sounded strange..]

Please excuse my english, I just gave my last exam, for this exams' period, Business Italian, so half of what I wrote it was in italian in my mind D:

Parlo pio un' italiano!

Take care everyone,
:heart: -N. :la: :la: :la:

  • Mood: Passionate
  • Listening to: Toli's music choices :O
  • Reading: Nothin'
  • Watching: people entering and leaving the net cafe
  • Playing: nothin'
  • Eating: uhm..
  • Drinking: Coffee. Sweet, w/o milk.. ALWAYS!!!!!

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Fri Aug 21, 2009, 6:06 PM
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La!


:meow:


Rolls of film are like smoking. Always you promise to print/quit them/it but you never do it!


:la:

:love:-N.


I closed a deal with P. publications! My Fairy with a Tale will spam your locals book-stores in about 5months :meow: And at this moment we arrange the artwork.. which will probably be made by A.Dhmaras :woohoo:

  • Mood: Euphoric
  • Listening to: T.
  • Reading: T.
  • Watching: T.
  • Playing: T.
  • Eating: T.
  • Drinking: T.

I'll pretend to hide (2) + Zenit 122.

Wed Jul 15, 2009, 2:22 PM
and you'll pretend to find me!

Hitting to north.. summer school // conferences // political debates // a colorful mill.

// Update! //
I got a Zenit 122.
I love it.
I think it's the love of my life.
But it still needs some thingies..

3erei kaneis kanena magazi se A8hna // Thessalonikh poy na promh8eyei // poylaei palio e3oplismo?
I need a special flash developed by Zenit at 3K TBS ;)
Or less.. or something similar!

Ps; I'm exploring microphotography and I'm in love.. I can't say the same with the rolls of film tho..

// Update off! //

Just wanted to say hi!

// Update! //
I have internet connection but it's limited so.. anywayz!
I'll keep track of what's happening here with photos and stuff on my blog.
If you have some time to waste just drop it a look :)
[link]
// Update off! //


Take care,
and see ya in a couple of months,
:heart: - N.

  • Mood: Love Dazed
  • Listening to: T.
  • Reading: T.
  • Watching: T.
  • Playing: T.
  • Eating: T.
  • Drinking: T.

Fuck you and fuck off have a

Mon Jun 1, 2009, 8:57 AM
whole different meaning!


OH HAI THERE!

=peteranti asked me to move my phat ass and do something on here but i can't yet.

'cause..

guess?


I R MOVING!
Actually I just moved all of my stuff [and i got a loooooooooooot..] and now I only need to pick up ze laptop+phone thingy and go to my new shinny PENTHOUSE!
'cause baby now I haz a 80 square meters penthouse all wooden with windows on the ceiling, imba floor and stuff like that.
Except that I have like a shitLOAD of photographs both.. artistic and lame!
But first.. EXAMS!
I'm giving 23 lessons in total, included the labs [ i r doing lessons from the 2nd, 3rd and 4th semester at the same time, I'm like the fucking Hermione from Harry Potter! ], and I'm fighting for a scholarship Boras univercity offers!
Boras is a town 500km from Stockholm all shinny 24/7 for 6months and all dark 24/7 the next six months. Wish me luck!
Also, in july I'll represent my school to a fucking international conference in Poland at Lundz Univercity! Wish me luck also. The subject is Political Economics in general.
Sooo.. i haz a shitload of study and work and research to do. Meeeeeeeeeh!

I miss miss miss miss miss mr T. also known as ~greenleaf-elfy as much as I miss other friends/deviants from Athens. Hope somewhere in August I'll catch up with ya :<

Uhm.. what else!?

Sorry for ze lame journal.. sorry for not answering.. I bother to answer only to mr T. else he's gonna get zelda on me and I really don't want it.
Cause imagine an elf going zelda on you? FUCKING NIGHTMARE!

I'm so so so tired.. I'm so stressed that I can't get some damn sleep these days.. that's day 4 of insomnia, I have no idea what I'm writing and my mind is full of Russian!
Which is a great language but sooo hard to understand sometimes.
Tomorrow I write my first ever lesson which is.. Word text processing -.-
Boriiiiiiiiiiing!

That's all I love you all!
I r going to hug my new pillow and bed and try to get some damn sleep.
Take careeeeeeeeeeee!
More Nat in a couple of weeks hopefully.
Baibai!

:heart:


Ps: Visit my blog. No matter if you can understand what I write or not. Click on the adds. FEED NATASHA. :D
Ps2: btw.. it's 1st of June and I'm tanned for the second time of my life! Since Easter I r going to ze beach and swim like crazy 'cause.. sea+beaches is the only thing Ninja has to offer me. I love my Bikini lines! :aww:
Small poll;
Do you like Bikini Lines?
yes?
No?
Why?

  • Mood: Horny
  • Listening to: ze wiiiiiiiiind
  • Reading: russian
  • Watching: ze screeeeeeeeeen
  • Playing: WoW
  • Eating: sand
  • Drinking: sun

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